Someone asked me why I haven't had a girlfriend

I say, because of my parents. It's partially a lie, yes, it was them, up untIl 3 years ago. Then, it was my cowardice, inexperience, and. . . not really wanting to be with any of the girls I liked. Now? It's possible I'm just justifying myself. But, to have a girlfriend, that would mean someone is letting themselves be hurt by me, or giving me that potential, and I don't want to hurt anybody, if someone is going to be hurt then, it will be me. So no, I don't have a girlfriend, not that I don't want one, I just, want other things more, and they are stronger than my desire for any amount of emotional intimacy, because I'm never fully open with someone, I hide, and distract, most of the time when I share personal things, it's to hide other things. I had a therapist, I didn't like him, I guess he was working on my self esteem or something, not the reason I went there, but he seemed to make me his little project. He didn't realize I was jut closed to him, so I came off as timid, or, repressed. He told me to get a girlfriend, I said didn't want one, he tried to get me to. . . conform, or something, but, I just don't want it more than I want keep on the path I'm on now. He didn't understand, I'm glad I left. He was. . . too much of an inverse of my life