So I found on this guy's blog, he posted a sermon from a pastor in Illinois, here it is:
http://www.elmhurstascension.org/media/audio

I'm used to the newest one being at the top so I listened to the first one I saw, and I really like hearing that, I've never heard a sermon from a pastor before, so it was kind of eye-opening.
The best part was I found the perfect talk given in General Conference that explains the unanswered questions in the sermon, now I already knew that, but I think it's really a great thing to read after hearing that:
http://www.lds.org/general-conference/1995/04/apostasy-and-restoration?lang=eng

so, just anyone who wants, i think its a great experience.

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TS: “Well, what do I think?”

WW: “What do you think, or what do we think?”

TS: “Is there a difference?”

WW: “There’s always a difference.  You may be me, but the fact that we’re talking means we have different intentions.”

TS: “Or, I’m just here to guide you onto the path you already want.”

WW: “Do you think I’d allow that?  I’m not of the character to be convinced.”

TS: “I don’t think you’ll have a choice, that is, as I’ve said, why I’m here.”

WW: “Well then it would seem the position I’m in is already a losing one.  But, I don’t really believe you, and you probably know that already.  I can’t really see you being here without having been prepared.”

TS: “Oh, I don’t need anything I haven’t learned here with you.  I can feel it in the way your heart beats, in every step.  You don’t want her anymore.”

WW: “I love her, and I’m not giving up so easily.”

TS: “With the way she hurt you?”

WW: “That’s not-”

TS: “Her fault?  No, it’s yours, you drove her to that and now her life is suffering.  You’ll leave her, you have to.”

WW: “That’s not the only option.”

TS: “Isn’t it?!  How much longer will you let this drag on?  You’re choices are to end it, or let them rot.”

WW: “. . . I don’t buy it, and I’m not going to force anybody to ruin their life so I can suffer less.”

TS: “Of course you will, that’s what you do, that’s who you are.”

WW: “Look, if I must, then I must.  But until then, I’m not pressing the issue.”

[Later]

“Well, are you going to do it now?”

“It’s not your decision, I still feel the same way.”

“Hmph, love, the only thing it’s done is put you in this position, I say finish it.”

“You say a lot of things, and by the way, how does that even work, given your state?”

I didn't want to come back here.  But I was looking for things, and I guess it felt right to say a few things.  I honestly believe what has happened to me here and elsewhere was to teach me something.  I still don't know what yet, I'm still stressed, I'm still scared, I'm still lonely, but I don't know what I'd be without these things.  I guess I'm coming back here tonight to find what I missed.  When I was so consumed with what I thought I wanted, I ended up missing what I may have needed.  Well, I guess that's it with the vagueness now.  I don't really know who might read this, but despite that. . . I'm flawed. . . maybe broken. . . and I like it that way. . . it's liberating, and beautiful.  And I think that's all I want right now.  Thank You.